Long Weekend

For the past several years I have wanted another baby. My girls think I am crazy, and Ryan just keeps reminding me we are on an 7 year plan....(7 years and they're all gone....to college at least!) None of that matters to me, we are very young parents and have plenty of time left in our lives to raise more children! Well, this weekend probably brought me one step closer to realizing I probably really don't want any more sweet babies! lol

Ally's surgery went well on Friday but poor thing has had a hard recovery weekend. In all fairness, Dr. Sajeri warned us it would be a tough weekend and as a surgeon who has performed hundres of these surgeries he was right on the mark! Friday was really tough, Ally couldn't get comfortable for anything.....the anesthesia was really taking its toll on her and the pain meds can't really help that kind of pain. Grammy came over for a couple of hours to try and get her mind off the pain and then Allys best friend showed up with movies for another couple hours of comedy relief, I thank God for them both, they really helped! Probably the hardest thing on us all was that Ally's bedroom is upstairs and everything else is on the main floor of the house, I don't know if I've ever climbed those stairs so many times in one day! I got such a work out that I woke up crying in pain with muscle cramps in my calves during the middle of the night.....I've been taking muscle relaxers since! With the exception of 3am feedings, it almost was like having a new born in the house.....she needed something every 15 minutes.....or she didn't want anyone around at all! She was in extreme pain.....or sleeping like a log (thank god!) It was very humbling as a mother to have that "you can't control this" moment. I felt helpless a couple of times and wanted to cry for her. Saturday brought slight relief but still pain and frustration. Sunday marked day three....and true to form, the worst day, last night she was very teary and again a phone call from grammy got her to motivate, take a shower, wash her hair and try to feel a little closer to normal! Thank God for Grammy! Grammy was involved in an accident a couple of years ago and suffered a fractured skull and brain injury, so when she tells Ally she's gonna have to push herself and just do things she doesnt feel like she can...Grammy knows! She's been there. Ally ackknowledges that and complied!

Its frustrating when our kids are in pain and we can't do anything about it. I'm a problem solver too....so for me to not be able to fix this for her is very frustratin to me. I've just had to give it to god and know that he has a plan. I'm even more convinced of this as I consider that having just been downsized in December it is no coincidence that is was January before Ally became so sick....God knew I was going to need to be home all of January as the Dr's figured out what was wrong with her and in February for her recovery.....God is good. As tough as it's been to have to watch her hurt, it is all that much more comforting to know that God gave me what I needed to be home taking care of her during this time.

As Ally and I begin the week, hoping to get her out of her room and downstairs for a little tv time today, what trial does it seem gods put in your life that is perhaps just setting you up to take care of other things in life? While we don't always have that direct line to know what God is thinking, if we just put our faith in him, he makes himself evident in all areas of our lives.

Have a great day!